Cheated on me!

Well, this Swami's name is out in the press for getting intimate with a woman. Right time to write about 'Cheated on me!' - I trusted this Swami. I had faith in this Swami. He broke my trust, he cheated me.

What indeed is the right feeling here within me?

Well as is always the case there are multiple feelings within. Well it goes something like these:
1. I didn't expect this from him.
2. He broke my faith / trust in him.
3. What will people think - about Me who followed him or about Him, whom i had projected as a intelligent soul.
4. People are going to make fun of me.
5. Is this life worth it? Shouldn't I just get back to my naughty old ways and be ruled by the mind?
6. Now i have to cover up my face and defend that I was not a follower of this guy actually - ha ha technically speaking etc.
7. Now i have to defend that - what I believed in and practiced is justified, that I didn't blindly follow him.
8. Why did he do it? he had too much at stake.
9. Well its a bogus report, this Swami ji just cannot do anything wrong. The knowledge that i have gathered from his teaching is indicative of that. Maybe he just wants to prove a point to his devotees - what true love is.
10. How is this guy going to respond, is it his end or will he fight back? Another Osho in the making? Hope so.

Could some of these be the feeling of a cheated husband or wife? It might just not be about - I had faith in him and he broke it.