In-laws! Defnitely a wrong finding

In-laws is a wrong word used. In fact it should have been Out-laws ie if we were to coin 'In' as a positive vibe and 'Out' as negative. I live in this society for the past 39 years, I base this observation from this, I see quite a few in-laws to in-laws relationship behave like out-laws.
There is always an unwritten thought process - post 'Marriage' ie of the - your family vs my family demarcation. The degrees vary:
You spend all your money for your family.
You spend more time for them than me.
You have not helped my brother vs you helped your brother.
Your brother does not help in kitchen vs you help in kitchen.

We have no privacy because of your in laws and so on.

So I guess 'In-laws' should be renamed as 'Out-laws'?

My first death, can i face it?

If i can smile at my first death, then i can smile at my last death. 

All say- i  am not afraid to die.  Would that be true?

Please note all the incidents in life, for it really tells you how you might face your death.

For example, when the near ones moves away, keep observing:

The vacuum created inside,

The suction felt at the heart,

The emptiness felt in the tummy,

The thumping felt in the head,

The immense need to cry out loud, with no sound coming out,

The resounding sound of No, No which echoes from the heart, but the events just happens.

The shrilling cry within - saying i am loosing, i wont allow, but the event just happens.

The day they leave will be my first death. The news has shaken. The happening remains to be seen. The cry is drilling hard. 

It makes me stronger, i will have my vengeance, i will taste the  blood, I am ready to die a dogs death.

Returning to the house? Do it feel like visiting a place of death?

If i am shaken for this incident, would i  not break at the event of facing my death?

The suffering is unending, the conversation i had with colleague encourages me to stand up. 

The last man standing in the fight ring wins!

Use short term solutions to fight long term wars.

Use ego to hit back short term, but eventually ego hits you back. 

Like, use alcohol to be at peace short term, but long run it would drown you out.

 

So remember the ultimate solution:

Rule the mind and you have ruled them all - the opponent and yourself.

For it is true, No wonder god has put mind on your top!

Rather sad, money money money..

All humans lie about not being materialistic, even if their own kids are the topic:

• We buy an AC and run to work to pay the emi for it.
• Thereby we fail to enjoy the coolness of the AC as much as we should.

• We make a kid and run to work to pay for its nanny and its toys. Thereby we fail to enjoy the warmth of the kid as much as it is expecting.

I would have loved to spend more time, more play, more fight, more teaching, more tricks, more gummy bears dances, more sticking of our tummys, more hug with a bare chest, for you enjoy it so much, more karate , more racing trucks with you son.
But if i do this now for another 4 years, I will not be able to relax with you for remaining 40 odd years. My designation is an atm and let me fulfill it.
For if the atm does not generate the money, you wouldnt be allowed near my bedside at death. History has proved it. It dosent matter if i am a good person.
I am forgoing the present 10 years to make the future 40 years better for us. Sorry.
And yes it wouldnt be that easy for I need to teach you how bad money is or rather humans are?

The duality?

this is wat i am

this is right

but this is wat is happening

can u just see this is wat i am

nothing beyond it?

the circumstance, situations, feeling give rise to the what is

if u feel frustrated

feel to blast out - blast out

but dont enter the duality

to make the what is to what should be

be totally with what is

a new outlook

new thot to be with

to assimilate

to live

JK says all this

the higher soul

the better person

the consciouness

all ideas and ideaology to keep us humans conditioned in this never ending duality

 

 

means and methods to say

am not responsible

the moment u divide

the momonet u say

enthe cheiyana

nyan ingane ayie

u have observer and observed

a duality at the core

tats the starting point

 

 

who is telling that

u have someone who observes

and something that is being observed

and gap is requried for this

go stand touching ur eyes to the mirror

u cant observe

?

a gap

u stand always in a weather of 40degres

u wouldnt know its hot

u stand away from 40 deg at 30deg

thats when there is the observer and observed

the same

if u observe that - oh i know .. am a naggin wife

thats duality

an observer standing away from the observed

the gap

its the same

lets work from the center outward

then u can apply it on ur mom

or any situation

it start withing

 

 

 

 

a radical change

can i break of all relation with shobit

and be totally in that present condition

can i not be influced by centuries of conditioning

of what should be has be fed to me

that bro and bro in law relation cant break

of relations are like that

sweet and sour

can i be totally with the wat is?

can i not allow any external influence

 

 

 

to make me look at what should be?

can not be dual?

can i not observe the same

enthe cheiyana

i have become a bad person

i was good

a gd family man respecting relations

now married life made me this

for that is observer and observed

u see the similarity?

 

 

and did u notice ur comment

difficult to change

again a observer who says

this is what is

and what is change

its the other side which u wish to step in

the what should be

in this case my talk became the what should be

this is the same

conditioning

earlier it was socitety ideology

now it became mine

Living the truth is not necessary NOW!

Osho said - 'Truth creates controversy, because it shocks people, it shatters their illusions. And they want to cling to their illusions; those illusions are very consoling, comfortable, convenient and cozy. They don’t want to leave their dreams, they are not ready to drop their investments in all kinds of foolish projects — and that’s what truth requires of them. They feel angry, they want to take revenge.

It’s absolutely natural. I am going to live in controversy — and this is only the beginning. Wait for the day they expel me from the world! I am really enchanted: where will they send me? It will be worth it, worth all the trouble of going there and living out of the world.

I have nothing to lose, so why compromise? I have nothing to gain, so why compromise? All that could have happened has happened. Nothing can be taken away from me, because my treasure is of the inner. And nothing can be added to it, because my treasure is of the inner.

So I am going to live the way I want to live. I am going to live in my own spontaneity and authenticity. I am not here to fulfill anybody’s expectations. I am not interested in being called a spiritual person or a saint either. I don’t need any compliments from anybody, I don’t want the crowd to worship me. All those stupid games are finished.

 

I am in that state where nothing can happen any more; it is beyond happening. So I will go on saying things which offend people. It is not that I want to offend them, but what can I do? If truth offends them, then it offends them. I am going to live life the way it is happening to me. If it is not according to their expectations, either they can change their expectations or they can feel angry, miserable, and go on clinging to their expectations. '

But why bother? If the very same inner what Osho mentions is true, it dosent matter if your outer does not live truth, if your outer does not preach truth. Only the awareness should matter. NOW in this world it does not matter if you change others, what should matter if your inner knows it?

Failure? Now I understand it

But why? Then you want to fail! You don’t want to go deep into it because you are afraid — you may fail — so it is better not to go… At least you can say that no opportunity was ever given. There are many people who will not go through an examination so they can say that they never failed; they were never allowed any opportunity. If they go through the examination and fail, it goes against their ego.
These are the thousand and one complexities of the human mind. You have to go deep into a relationship, and when one goes, one has to go deep, wherever it leads. What is the fear? Life will be lost anyway, whether you love or not. You cannot live forever, so death will come. Death will not ask whether you have a nice girl or not? It will simply take you away, whether you have lived or not. You cannot say to death ‘This is unjust — I have not lived yet, I have not loved yet…’ Don’t postpone!
You may be afraid of rejection — if you approach a woman or go into a relationship, you may be rejected. But if you become afraid of rejection, you are already missing the opportunity. Yes, there is a possibility of rejection. Life is a risk, it is a gamble. But the joy is because there is the risk of losing, there is joy in winning. If you are bound to win there is no point.
I have heard about a prince who was a player of chess, a lover of chess. But he was very worried because whosoever would play with him…. It was a rule of his father that the son had to win, so he was always winning. Now what is the point of playing a game if you are always winning? If it is absolutely decided that you have to win and others have to fail, they have to lose, then the whole joy is lost.
He escaped from his kingdom because of his love for chess, went into another kingdom, became a common person, started playing chess. Now there was joy because now he had to fight. The other was not bound to lose; the other could win. Now winning was a challenge.
Remember it! There is a possibility of being rejected — that’s good, that adds spice to love. And don’t wait for somebody to come to you, because other people are also waiting. Take the initiative. And women particularly don’t take the initiative; that is not part of the feminine mind and the feminine energy. The man has to take the initiative. If you are just sitting there like a Buddhist monk then nobody will take any notice of you; they will by-pass you. Who bothers about a Buddhist monk?
You are waiting there for somebody to come and knock on the door nobody will come. And even if somebody knocks on the door, you will not open the door because you will be so afraid. You have never been in a deep relationship, you have become accustomed to living alone; now somebody is there to disturb the whole thing. And you are not a born monk either, otherwise I would have said ‘Perfectly good!’ You want to have a relationship and you are afraid — whatsoever the reason. You have to drop that fear.

There is no problem as far as your energy is concerned — the whole problem is in your mind. The way you have been thinking in your past has become a rut. It is not that you are a failure; it is the constant repetition that you are a failure that has hypnotised you. It is an auto-hypnosis.
Now you are afraid to succeed in anything, because if you succeed that will go against your whole ideology. That will prove that you were wrong — that will go against the grain, it will be against your ego. Now failure has become your trip. If you can fail, that will be your success. So you can say to the whole world, ‘Look, I have always been saying that I am a failure, that I am destined to be a failure — now see!’
There was a hypochondriac who had been torturing the doctors and the physicians and the psychoanalysts his whole life. He nad no real problem but that was his way of life; he could not live without problems so he was creating them. Wherever he would go, the doctor would say ‘There is no disease in your body so I cannot do anything.’ He would go to the psychoanalyst and he would say ‘There is nothing that can be done because there is no problem at all.’
He was very angry. He was feeling that everybody was against him, as if there was a conspiracy. But when he died people discovered under his pillow that he had a marble stone ready for his grave, and on the marble stone he had engraved this message ‘Now do you believe me?’
His whole life he was telling people that he was ill and this and that. ‘Now, am I dead or not?’ — that’s what he was asking. People can get into negative trips, remember. This is a negative trip… You have to drop it. Nobody can help you with it; you have simply to drop it. This is your life — if you want to live it in a negative way, you can. There is no problem in your energy at all. You can have a beautiful relationship, you can find a beautiful woman; there is no problem at all. In fact, you have starved yourself for so long that your honeymoon will be very long!
Just drop this idea. This is a stupid idea that has settled in you. But it settles in many people’s minds because of a wrong training in the childhood, because we don’t yet have a perfect way of bringing up children, that’s why.
Parents give their own diseases to the children. Maybe your father had the same idea and it became transferred to you. Maybe your mother had the idea or maybe they were worried that you might fail in your life; their very worry became your worry. Or maybe they were too interested in making you a success, a great success and from the very childhood they started giving you great ideals — that you have to do this and you have to do that, and again and again you felt that you fell short.
Something in your upbringing went wrong… but this is the case with the majority of people, so you are not in any way a special sufferer — nobody is! There is nothing special about it; almost everybody, more or less, suffers. Everybody wants to have power, prestige, money… and fails, not because these things are not available — they are, but that doesn’t make much difference. You can have millions of dollars — still you will think you are a failure because you could have millions more. The imagination always rushes ahead of you. It is always there standing ahead of you, condemning you ‘What are you? You are a failure!’ You can have one million dollars — you are a failure because you could have ten million. You can have ten million — you are a failure because you could have a hundred million.
Because of the imagination man remains a failure, always a failure. Then children come; and the man is a failure, so he becomes worried whether his child is going to make it or not. He starts implanting great desires, ambitions in him, and from the very beginning those ambitions start creating difficulties for the child, because parents are hoping too much and the child starts seeing ‘This doesn’t seem to be possible — I am not that special. Nobody is that special. I am not going to make it, so better not to try.’ At least you can say ‘No opportunity was given to me.’
That’s my feeling about you: you have not been relating to women so that you can say ‘What can I do? No woman seems to be interested in me!’ Just to avoid a failure, you are creating this situation around you so that you are not responsible. Somehow life itself is against you. You don’t have a nice girlfriend because nice women don’t look at you…. But I don’t see any problem!

STOP !!!! Just drop - - to the classical music NOW

To the ordinary musician the sound is important. To the master musician the silence is important: he uses sound only to create silence. He raises sound to a high pitch and then drops it so suddenly that you fall into a deep silence.
Silence alone is not very beautiful, sound alone is not very beautiful, but the meeting of sound and silence is very, very beautiful -- that is music.
There is nothing closer to meditation than music -- wordless, meaningless, but tremendously significant. It says nothing but shows much, expresses nothing but brings to you a great splendor. From musician move towards the mystic. The day your music consists only of silence, you have arrived home.
If it brings meditation to you, if it brings silence; if it fills you with silence, if it reminds you of the soundless sound inside you, then only is it real music.

Put some sand on a thin plastic sheet, Classical music will put all the sand in a very silent, very harmonious state; it will create a pattern of harmony. The same sand, the same plate and any stupid kind of modern music -- from jazz to the skinheads -- and you will be surprised that your sand is in a chaos. It loses all harmony, it loses all peacefulness, and patterns are created which show immediately to anybody disharmony, discord. A man of silence moves with a certain field of energy around him, and if you are receptive, his vibe starts touching your heart.

AUM means exactly what Zen people call "the sound of one hand clapping". AUM is the innermost music of your being. When all the thoughts and desires and memories have gone, have disappeared, and the mind is absolutely quiet and silent, there is no noise inside, you start hearing a tremendously beautiful music which does not consist of any meaning. It is pure music without any meaning, gives you great joy, fills you with celebration, makes you dance. You would like to shout "Alleluia!" But the music itself has no meaning; it is pure music, not polluted by any meaning. AUM represents that inner music, that inner harmony, that inner humming sound which happens when your body, your mind, your soul are functioning together in deep accord, when the visible and the invisible, the manifest and the unmanifest are dancing together.
Om is the silent sound, when the mind stops all chattering and you enter into the world of no-mind. The music of no-mind is something closer to Om. It is not exactly Om, but Om comes very close to that subtle sound.

So STOP!!!!!! Drop all and listen to the silence in -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVSrqUjIHWs


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