Living the truth is not necessary NOW!

Osho said - 'Truth creates controversy, because it shocks people, it shatters their illusions. And they want to cling to their illusions; those illusions are very consoling, comfortable, convenient and cozy. They don’t want to leave their dreams, they are not ready to drop their investments in all kinds of foolish projects — and that’s what truth requires of them. They feel angry, they want to take revenge.

It’s absolutely natural. I am going to live in controversy — and this is only the beginning. Wait for the day they expel me from the world! I am really enchanted: where will they send me? It will be worth it, worth all the trouble of going there and living out of the world.

I have nothing to lose, so why compromise? I have nothing to gain, so why compromise? All that could have happened has happened. Nothing can be taken away from me, because my treasure is of the inner. And nothing can be added to it, because my treasure is of the inner.

So I am going to live the way I want to live. I am going to live in my own spontaneity and authenticity. I am not here to fulfill anybody’s expectations. I am not interested in being called a spiritual person or a saint either. I don’t need any compliments from anybody, I don’t want the crowd to worship me. All those stupid games are finished.

 

I am in that state where nothing can happen any more; it is beyond happening. So I will go on saying things which offend people. It is not that I want to offend them, but what can I do? If truth offends them, then it offends them. I am going to live life the way it is happening to me. If it is not according to their expectations, either they can change their expectations or they can feel angry, miserable, and go on clinging to their expectations. '

But why bother? If the very same inner what Osho mentions is true, it dosent matter if your outer does not live truth, if your outer does not preach truth. Only the awareness should matter. NOW in this world it does not matter if you change others, what should matter if your inner knows it?

Failure? Now I understand it

But why? Then you want to fail! You don’t want to go deep into it because you are afraid — you may fail — so it is better not to go… At least you can say that no opportunity was ever given. There are many people who will not go through an examination so they can say that they never failed; they were never allowed any opportunity. If they go through the examination and fail, it goes against their ego.
These are the thousand and one complexities of the human mind. You have to go deep into a relationship, and when one goes, one has to go deep, wherever it leads. What is the fear? Life will be lost anyway, whether you love or not. You cannot live forever, so death will come. Death will not ask whether you have a nice girl or not? It will simply take you away, whether you have lived or not. You cannot say to death ‘This is unjust — I have not lived yet, I have not loved yet…’ Don’t postpone!
You may be afraid of rejection — if you approach a woman or go into a relationship, you may be rejected. But if you become afraid of rejection, you are already missing the opportunity. Yes, there is a possibility of rejection. Life is a risk, it is a gamble. But the joy is because there is the risk of losing, there is joy in winning. If you are bound to win there is no point.
I have heard about a prince who was a player of chess, a lover of chess. But he was very worried because whosoever would play with him…. It was a rule of his father that the son had to win, so he was always winning. Now what is the point of playing a game if you are always winning? If it is absolutely decided that you have to win and others have to fail, they have to lose, then the whole joy is lost.
He escaped from his kingdom because of his love for chess, went into another kingdom, became a common person, started playing chess. Now there was joy because now he had to fight. The other was not bound to lose; the other could win. Now winning was a challenge.
Remember it! There is a possibility of being rejected — that’s good, that adds spice to love. And don’t wait for somebody to come to you, because other people are also waiting. Take the initiative. And women particularly don’t take the initiative; that is not part of the feminine mind and the feminine energy. The man has to take the initiative. If you are just sitting there like a Buddhist monk then nobody will take any notice of you; they will by-pass you. Who bothers about a Buddhist monk?
You are waiting there for somebody to come and knock on the door nobody will come. And even if somebody knocks on the door, you will not open the door because you will be so afraid. You have never been in a deep relationship, you have become accustomed to living alone; now somebody is there to disturb the whole thing. And you are not a born monk either, otherwise I would have said ‘Perfectly good!’ You want to have a relationship and you are afraid — whatsoever the reason. You have to drop that fear.

There is no problem as far as your energy is concerned — the whole problem is in your mind. The way you have been thinking in your past has become a rut. It is not that you are a failure; it is the constant repetition that you are a failure that has hypnotised you. It is an auto-hypnosis.
Now you are afraid to succeed in anything, because if you succeed that will go against your whole ideology. That will prove that you were wrong — that will go against the grain, it will be against your ego. Now failure has become your trip. If you can fail, that will be your success. So you can say to the whole world, ‘Look, I have always been saying that I am a failure, that I am destined to be a failure — now see!’
There was a hypochondriac who had been torturing the doctors and the physicians and the psychoanalysts his whole life. He nad no real problem but that was his way of life; he could not live without problems so he was creating them. Wherever he would go, the doctor would say ‘There is no disease in your body so I cannot do anything.’ He would go to the psychoanalyst and he would say ‘There is nothing that can be done because there is no problem at all.’
He was very angry. He was feeling that everybody was against him, as if there was a conspiracy. But when he died people discovered under his pillow that he had a marble stone ready for his grave, and on the marble stone he had engraved this message ‘Now do you believe me?’
His whole life he was telling people that he was ill and this and that. ‘Now, am I dead or not?’ — that’s what he was asking. People can get into negative trips, remember. This is a negative trip… You have to drop it. Nobody can help you with it; you have simply to drop it. This is your life — if you want to live it in a negative way, you can. There is no problem in your energy at all. You can have a beautiful relationship, you can find a beautiful woman; there is no problem at all. In fact, you have starved yourself for so long that your honeymoon will be very long!
Just drop this idea. This is a stupid idea that has settled in you. But it settles in many people’s minds because of a wrong training in the childhood, because we don’t yet have a perfect way of bringing up children, that’s why.
Parents give their own diseases to the children. Maybe your father had the same idea and it became transferred to you. Maybe your mother had the idea or maybe they were worried that you might fail in your life; their very worry became your worry. Or maybe they were too interested in making you a success, a great success and from the very childhood they started giving you great ideals — that you have to do this and you have to do that, and again and again you felt that you fell short.
Something in your upbringing went wrong… but this is the case with the majority of people, so you are not in any way a special sufferer — nobody is! There is nothing special about it; almost everybody, more or less, suffers. Everybody wants to have power, prestige, money… and fails, not because these things are not available — they are, but that doesn’t make much difference. You can have millions of dollars — still you will think you are a failure because you could have millions more. The imagination always rushes ahead of you. It is always there standing ahead of you, condemning you ‘What are you? You are a failure!’ You can have one million dollars — you are a failure because you could have ten million. You can have ten million — you are a failure because you could have a hundred million.
Because of the imagination man remains a failure, always a failure. Then children come; and the man is a failure, so he becomes worried whether his child is going to make it or not. He starts implanting great desires, ambitions in him, and from the very beginning those ambitions start creating difficulties for the child, because parents are hoping too much and the child starts seeing ‘This doesn’t seem to be possible — I am not that special. Nobody is that special. I am not going to make it, so better not to try.’ At least you can say ‘No opportunity was given to me.’
That’s my feeling about you: you have not been relating to women so that you can say ‘What can I do? No woman seems to be interested in me!’ Just to avoid a failure, you are creating this situation around you so that you are not responsible. Somehow life itself is against you. You don’t have a nice girlfriend because nice women don’t look at you…. But I don’t see any problem!

STOP !!!! Just drop - - to the classical music NOW

To the ordinary musician the sound is important. To the master musician the silence is important: he uses sound only to create silence. He raises sound to a high pitch and then drops it so suddenly that you fall into a deep silence.
Silence alone is not very beautiful, sound alone is not very beautiful, but the meeting of sound and silence is very, very beautiful -- that is music.
There is nothing closer to meditation than music -- wordless, meaningless, but tremendously significant. It says nothing but shows much, expresses nothing but brings to you a great splendor. From musician move towards the mystic. The day your music consists only of silence, you have arrived home.
If it brings meditation to you, if it brings silence; if it fills you with silence, if it reminds you of the soundless sound inside you, then only is it real music.

Put some sand on a thin plastic sheet, Classical music will put all the sand in a very silent, very harmonious state; it will create a pattern of harmony. The same sand, the same plate and any stupid kind of modern music -- from jazz to the skinheads -- and you will be surprised that your sand is in a chaos. It loses all harmony, it loses all peacefulness, and patterns are created which show immediately to anybody disharmony, discord. A man of silence moves with a certain field of energy around him, and if you are receptive, his vibe starts touching your heart.

AUM means exactly what Zen people call "the sound of one hand clapping". AUM is the innermost music of your being. When all the thoughts and desires and memories have gone, have disappeared, and the mind is absolutely quiet and silent, there is no noise inside, you start hearing a tremendously beautiful music which does not consist of any meaning. It is pure music without any meaning, gives you great joy, fills you with celebration, makes you dance. You would like to shout "Alleluia!" But the music itself has no meaning; it is pure music, not polluted by any meaning. AUM represents that inner music, that inner harmony, that inner humming sound which happens when your body, your mind, your soul are functioning together in deep accord, when the visible and the invisible, the manifest and the unmanifest are dancing together.
Om is the silent sound, when the mind stops all chattering and you enter into the world of no-mind. The music of no-mind is something closer to Om. It is not exactly Om, but Om comes very close to that subtle sound.

So STOP!!!!!! Drop all and listen to the silence in -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVSrqUjIHWs


Vathapi Ganapathim Bhajeham
Vaaranaasyam Vara Pradham Sri

Bhoothaadhi Samsevitha Charanam
Bhootha Bhautika Prapancha Bharanam

Madhyamakala Sahityam

Veetharaaginam Vinutha Yoginam
Vishwakaaranam Vigna Vaaranam

Puraa Kumbha Sambhava Munivara Prapoojitham Trikona Madhyagatham
Muraari Pramukhaadhyupaasitham Moolaadhaara Kshetrasthitham
Paraadhi Chathvaari Vaagaathmakam Pranava Swaroopa Vakrathundam
Nirantharam Nithila Chandrakandam Nijavaamakara Vidhrutekshu Dandam

Madhyamakala Sahithyam

Karaambujapaasha Beejaapooram Kalushavidooram Bhoothaakaaram
Haraadhi Guruguha Toshitha Bimbam Hamsadhwani Bhooshitha Herambham

Express? Suppress?

Be watchful. That is a totally different thing, and that is real
protection. Just watch. Something starts happening, starts affecting you – watch it. Let it affect you but remain watching; don’t lose that consciousness. Something is affecting you – be alert about it. Let it affect you, don’t protect against it, but just watch. Go on seeing that it is affecting you: somebody has insulted you and it hurts. Just watch that it hurts with no judgment of good or bad.
Don’t say that you are disturbed, don’t say that he had done something wrong to you, don’t say that you should have protected yourself.
Don’t be worried that something is lost, your energy is disturbed, now how will you gain the old space again? No valuation at all, no judgment. Just watch it – that you are feeling hurt, so you are feeling hurt! And you will be surprised: the more you watch, the less you feel hurt, and still you remain open. The more watchfulness arises like a pillar, the less and less you are affected. And there is no
hard crust to protect you at all.
This watchfulness arises in the center of your being and the hard crust has to be put around the circumference; that is like a fencing wall. They are totally different, but you are watching, and in watchfulness nothing affects you. In the beginning when the watchfulness is not really deep, things will affect you, so nothing to be worried about. Watch that too – that you are affected. Somebody
insults you and you feel insulted. Watch both, and when you see that watching is helping and that that hurt feeling is going, watch that too. Soon you will see that the wound has disappeared... watch that tool Just go on watching whatsoever happens, so you will be able to avoid two extremes. One extreme is
protection: that creates armor, makes a man insensitive, dull and dead; that is the way of the monk.
The second extreme is to allow it to happen, to indulge in it; that is the way of the worldly. Somebody insults you, and you feel insulted, so you fight and get involved in the whole mess of it. People know only these two ways; they are cheap.

Gratitude!! The first teacher itself gave a wrong direction

Are these scenarios familiar for a mother?
* I carried you for 9 months in my stomach, the constant aches, breaking backs, haywire moods, not cooperative father, having to do all the chores of the family.
* I took all the pains to grow you, the sleepless night because of your fever, making you umpteen delicacy till it suited your taste, smiled and begged you to eat even when this delicacy was not liked the subsequent time, remade another delicacy, made sure you got to wear all the best clothes even if we suppressed our desires.
* I have to stay awake till 12am waiting for the son to get home from work although he is married, so that his arrangements for dinner are met.
* I have to hand over the tea cup to the son or daughter first thing he or she sits with the newspaper.
* I have to make sure the son or daughters clothes are managed with the servant and are ready for him or her to wear.
* I have to hear my son and daughter say - this dinner is not tasty and see them walk away from the table.
* I do not have the option not to make dinner even though he or she does not even turn up for the dinner the previous two nights.
* I have to set aside all my priorities when my son/daughter was growing and in school just to get her to finish her homework first and hit the bed as quickly as possible.
* I had lot of financial problems but didnt let them burden my little ones mind.
* I used to eat the previous days meal, but made sure the daughter or son got to eat the fresh meal prepared on the day.
* I kept my desires to spend my old age with my son or daughter hidden so that the son or daughter could fly to the US to live his or her dreams?
* I have severe back pain or arthritis, still i do not complain carrying my sons or daughters kid in all the shopping malls.
* I am 65 years old and my son or daughter does not help me live life as they are busy working in the city, but still when they call for help as they cant manage their little ones, I make it a point to rush to their help.
* I am 65 years old and have reached that point of life where my brothers and sisters are missing me for obvious reasons. I cant keep visiting them as often as I have to take care of my son/daughter/son in law/daughter in law.

How many mothers would have made their kids realize the importance of Gratitude?
How many mothers would have mentioned the above facts to their kids?
Would the society accept a mother who mentions these facts to their kids?
Is it right for the mother to tell this to the kid?
Do we see one person in this society who lives life with Gratitude - Who thanks his or her father for being instrumental in raising the money for the family to live? - NOT JUST IN WORDS, MATERIALS, but in deeds, actions which need to be done daily? Its been quite fashionable for kids to use up their mothers for 364 days a year and gift them a trip or a good chain or to take them to the doctor on the 365th day. How does it feel to ask them to take rest 364 days a year, make food for them 364 days a year, facilitate them to make steps towards godhood? If only kids realize old age is god realization.

The list is going to reach the Sun trying to unfold itself. The list of items for which we should show gratitude to.

Cant help wonder why this selfish, ungratefulness nature of people has become so existent, so common. There are for sure multiple reasons.

I guess the wrong rules of the society has a major role to play here. It has despised and looked down upon a mother who teaches her kids about gratitude, giving her example with reference to the kid. This i guess has formed the foundation on which the kid has grown his ungratefulness nature. If the mothers could really have taught values of gratefulness we might have had hope.

If only mothers taught us the first lesson - the most important lesson that she has sacrificed a lot for us to grow up - only then I would have had a better foundation for being a better person. When this first lesson itself was taught in such a way that I was made to feel - "mothers are for sacrifice, please take them for granted, it is her duty", - I have gone astray. No wonder we see husbands taking wives for granted. Wives taking husbands for granted. No hope. The foundation is shaky.