Express? Suppress?

Be watchful. That is a totally different thing, and that is real
protection. Just watch. Something starts happening, starts affecting you – watch it. Let it affect you but remain watching; don’t lose that consciousness. Something is affecting you – be alert about it. Let it affect you, don’t protect against it, but just watch. Go on seeing that it is affecting you: somebody has insulted you and it hurts. Just watch that it hurts with no judgment of good or bad.
Don’t say that you are disturbed, don’t say that he had done something wrong to you, don’t say that you should have protected yourself.
Don’t be worried that something is lost, your energy is disturbed, now how will you gain the old space again? No valuation at all, no judgment. Just watch it – that you are feeling hurt, so you are feeling hurt! And you will be surprised: the more you watch, the less you feel hurt, and still you remain open. The more watchfulness arises like a pillar, the less and less you are affected. And there is no
hard crust to protect you at all.
This watchfulness arises in the center of your being and the hard crust has to be put around the circumference; that is like a fencing wall. They are totally different, but you are watching, and in watchfulness nothing affects you. In the beginning when the watchfulness is not really deep, things will affect you, so nothing to be worried about. Watch that too – that you are affected. Somebody
insults you and you feel insulted. Watch both, and when you see that watching is helping and that that hurt feeling is going, watch that too. Soon you will see that the wound has disappeared... watch that tool Just go on watching whatsoever happens, so you will be able to avoid two extremes. One extreme is
protection: that creates armor, makes a man insensitive, dull and dead; that is the way of the monk.
The second extreme is to allow it to happen, to indulge in it; that is the way of the worldly. Somebody insults you, and you feel insulted, so you fight and get involved in the whole mess of it. People know only these two ways; they are cheap.