My first death, can i face it?

If i can smile at my first death, then i can smile at my last death. 

All say- i  am not afraid to die.  Would that be true?

Please note all the incidents in life, for it really tells you how you might face your death.

For example, when the near ones moves away, keep observing:

The vacuum created inside,

The suction felt at the heart,

The emptiness felt in the tummy,

The thumping felt in the head,

The immense need to cry out loud, with no sound coming out,

The resounding sound of No, No which echoes from the heart, but the events just happens.

The shrilling cry within - saying i am loosing, i wont allow, but the event just happens.

The day they leave will be my first death. The news has shaken. The happening remains to be seen. The cry is drilling hard. 

It makes me stronger, i will have my vengeance, i will taste the  blood, I am ready to die a dogs death.

Returning to the house? Do it feel like visiting a place of death?

If i am shaken for this incident, would i  not break at the event of facing my death?

The suffering is unending, the conversation i had with colleague encourages me to stand up. 

The last man standing in the fight ring wins!

Use short term solutions to fight long term wars.

Use ego to hit back short term, but eventually ego hits you back. 

Like, use alcohol to be at peace short term, but long run it would drown you out.

 

So remember the ultimate solution:

Rule the mind and you have ruled them all - the opponent and yourself.

For it is true, No wonder god has put mind on your top!