The nights experience was new. I would have slept for 3 hrs and up at 2am for some reason. By 3.30am i was out in the open terrace meditating - chanting, counting, breath awareness. The night was wonderful with the climate just right for it to happen. The deadening silence with occasional flutter of the wings of some birds or the growls of dogs. All these made me smile with joy. When everything is a reason for celebration, everything just makes you smile. At times i got physically uncomfortable with non existent pains and nags. Yes i still have to go some distance. The feeling of intense awareness slowly started dawning, it was as if you where in full awareness of the immediate surrounding, as if its illuminated by a 1000 watt bulb and you were fresh in the moment observing everything.
Time went fast and cold wind started blowing and the mind realized it. I made a move into the terrace room by 5.30am and continued lying down in awareness. Not sure if i dozed off, but all through out this feeling of awareness was with me as if i was observing me sleeping. It wasn't the ultimate for there were breaks and movements and shifts.
Then moved on at 6.30am and took to a jog for 20 minutes. Finally it ended on top of the 45 stairs stadium and the meditation then too was different. Everything felt light and reasonless.
So far at 4pm, there is no signs of sleepiness or tiredness or frustration or tension. Everything feels silent.
The mind anticipated a sleepy observed and got the car to spend the afternoon in. The mind is wrong and is now reason - less.
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